*Kriska stops pacing.*
"No I am not a member of the colcave, I had to give something up to ease myself. I will carry on their ideas thought but I will not be a member."
*She sighs and looks down.*
"There was Bartholemew who was the only one who was left when everyone else left my life. I will never be alone until Neptune is reborn, then I will feel truely alone. I called, I warned but did anyone reply? No, not even Traveller has replied to me! My own High Priest, my friend, my..... He did not answer! Now I am to blame for alot, for not making you all listern, not doing my best. Now... now I must do more than my best, possibly more than I can give. I can not give up on the burderns that only I can carry, that only I can tell. I must carry them, I have no choice."
*Her voice starts to raise a little more.*
"I am not going to blame anyone for no one can carry this burdern. The maddness is growing slowly I can feel it. I do not know what it is but I know it in my heart! I can feel it. It is not Neptune, it is something larger something that will be more powerful and is linked to the book of Phropercies."
*She calms herserlf.*
"I have so much and so little time to give it in."
*She starts crying.*
"I do not know how I can get it all done in such a short space. I have it here."
*She touchers her head.*
*She touches her heart.*
"Feelings, emotions, thoughts, pain, longing, and frustration plus more things that I can not even describe."
*She looks almost deflated.*
*Kriska Neptune Molignue, bonded and Dead*
*Zemilia Sraosha Coshwood Ancalimon, Princes Regent of the Earth Elves.*